Ever get that feeling how something was much easier two or three years back? I do. I bet a 16-year old me would have no problems writing up the upcoming rant.
So, I decided to rant literally about everything I want to rant about, by myself, in this damn post. Why? Because if I'd talk about this useless crap with anyone who's close to me, their brains would most probably be fried 30 minutes into my rant. So, I'm ranting to all of you guys who follow me, about miscellaneous crap, and you can either choose to read all, choose to read certain parts or choose to not read, unwatch me, block me or
whatever you need to do.First of all, on the topic of past years, why does everything suddenly have so much deeper meaning behind it? I could literally buy a box of ice-cream and piss someone off in the world. Folks, sometimes things aren't that deep. I don't think anyone should start fuming about someone else's choice to buy, eat, wear, have sex with or any other meticulous thing. On the topic of this, in the effort of those very ones who are left "triggered" and angered by other people's choices, who believe in alternative choices and many other options, somehow, those very people, fall down to binaries and start seeing everything as black and white, beginning their array of ridiculous accusations, judgements disguised as "opinions" and making quick accusations of other people's personalities based solely on their choice to live their life. And you guys, who love to hide behind your small computer screens, are the god damn pioneers of such behaviour, while you don't do jack shit in real life to prevent that very sole issue that you have to cause ruckus everywhere for. Of course, you're only active when it concerns you, doesn't it? Preaching about walking a mile in someone's shoes while driving a car right next to them, are we?
Next up, Youtube community. See, things I discussed with myself above, tie closely to this particular topic. See, from time to time, I like to occasionally watch beauty videos. I think it's amazing to watch different looks come together, and in the end of the day, it inspires me as both an artist
and a woman.
I love makeup, I like to do my makeup, I like the way makeup looks on me and the way I look without it. I liked to watch these videos, not only for educational, but also entertainment value. But here's the thing, I also ain't big on
ass-kissing culture these creators often get, so from time to time, I like to visit other boards discussing these issues. See, the thing is, when I visit these boards, I like to read up on things like
makeup reviews, tutorial CC and similar, not problems in
politics, governments, medicine and ANYTHING OTHER THAT IS NOT RELATED to the MAKEUP and BEAUTY boards. I get it, sometimes discussions take some other turns and end up getting political, alright, from time to time it's okay. BUT FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, I have other boards to read up on that. I come to Youtube and Reddit to get away from the real things and yet I'm
constantly bombarded with those types of things in my feeds.
AGAIN, tied to that too, I'm sick and tired of these very creators ALSO finding something way too deep and having some deep, passive aggressive tweets, snaps, or whatever kids use some of these days. If you want to call out someone, do it and stop clogging my feed with it, or else, drama-invested as I am, will get curious and then
FURIOUS because I don't know what
the FUCK are you talking about.
Even tho this rant is all over the place, I have yet ANOTHER topic I'd like to discuss that is tied closely to both of these rants above.
Makeup. Makeup, hair, beauty in general. I cannot BEGIN to express how tired I am over accusations and judgements because I splat
paint on my face. You think I look good without makeup? Thanks, you can stop right there, WITHOUT THE DAMN NEED TO CONTINUE EXPLAINING HOW GIRLS ONLY WEAR MAKEUP BECAUSE THEY ARE INSECURE.
NO, they are not. I freaking love makeup. I have friends who freaking love makeup.
NONE, I repeat, NONE OF THEM wear it to impress anyone. Guys, AND some girls, are sometimes SO FUCKING INVESTED in telling you how insecure you are for having
gold and teal lids on your face. First of all, WOULD I BE WEARING GOLD AND TEAL ON MY FACE IF I WAS SO INSECURE, and second of all, who the fuck wouldn't wear gold and teal on their face? You should try it - instead of wasting my time shitting on my day. Young girls are not
HOES for wearing makeup, grown ups aren't
"thirsty" or insecure because they wear makeup. Believe it or not,
IT'S NOT THAT DEEP. ON THAT note, I don't care if a donkey wears makeup,
if that's what it wants to do, so why
the fuck do you care about who can wear makeup and who can't?
On the VERY SAME NOTE, while society WANTS YOU TO NOT WEAR IT, they also EXPECT YOU TO WEAR IT. Because, why the fuck not? Everyone expects us to look polished, but the moment we are, everyone is like "
whyyyy you so pretty without that shit".
Make up your damn minds, while I make up my face with these wings so big, I can fly away from my problems.
Now, FINALLY something on an unrelated note, I don't have anything from my college to rant about, except the fact, maybe,
that I ACTUALLY DO. So, tell me, IN THE NAME OF GOD, WHY, ON EARTH, DO WE HAVE EXAMS TILL JUNE 15TH EACH AND EVERY YEAR? See, here's some backstory - my college started earlier than usual this year. All cool, all well, all
peachy and
dandy, we get to end it
before the scorched earth rises again in the summer. Even our winter finals started earlier than expected. Everything was going great, I thought to myself, hm, perhaps this year we'll end up sooner before the unbearable heat. WELL, TELL ME, WHY, WOULD SOMEONE OF THE HIGHER UPS, JUST DECIDE TO PUT NOT ONLY ONE WEEK, BUT TWO WHOLE WEEKS WORTH OF "BREAK TIME" BETWEEN SUMMER FINALS AND FINAL WEEK OF CLASSES, INSTEAD OF HAVING EXAMS EARLIER and
letting us poor prisoners go back to our homelands? At this point, I think they're just fucking with us to see who bursts first and demolishes half of the new building, that, on another note, actually looks like a
fucking prison (the building has metal grids all over it).
On to my FIRST rant, after all this I've become ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE, because I'm ALSO complaining about something I can do shit about IN REAL LIFE. SO ON THAT NOTE, I WILL PROCEED TO ROAST MYSELF. I am SO FUCKING unmotivated to do anything lately. I LITERALLY CANNOT find something entertaining these days. It'd be fine if I was wasting time meant for studying WHILE ACTUALLY DOING SOMETHING WORTH WASTING TIME FOR BUT NO. I'M LITERALLY, SITTING ALL MORNING IN MY APARTMENT, DOING THINGS HALF-ARSED AND BEING BORED OUT OF MY MIND. I was supposed to get up REALLY early in the morning to catch some sunlight to get some nice ass photos. GUESS WHAT I DID? TURNED OFF THE ALARM AND DECIDED TO SLEEP, AS IF I CAN'T GET ENOUGH SLEEP LATER ON. MY GOD I'VE GOTTEN LAZY. This rant? I'm currently so
DAMN INVESTED INTO WRITING THIS. I FEEL adrenaline kicking in with each new sentence. I feel like a huge chunk of burden has literally dissolved off my chest. I feel motivated, now that I've thrown out my anger and issues out in the open. I FEEL FUCKING GREAT.
I CURSE SO GOD DAMN MUCH IN THIS POST AND I DON'T GIVE A CRAP. A 16-year old sassy me would write this post in an instant. One day, I've ran into one of my old accounts where I'd post my blog templates, and the amount of SASS in my description and commentary was overflowing. I was such an angsty teen now that I look at it. I feel like even today I'm constantly
"shushed" by others telling me what to do and what not to do, playing nice with everyone because that's
the thing adults do. WELL ADULTS SUCK. YOU'RE EXCUSED SO MUCH AS A KID AND FREE TO TALK SHIT WHENEVER YOU WANT. Kids say it as it is, even though everyone plays it off as "
not knowing what they're talking about" saving THEIR OWN FACE. The kid didn't pull shit like that out of their arse, he heard you talking shit, the
"adult".LAST RANT is also tied to the great ME. I am so SICK AND TIRED OF MY OWN BRAIN. I keep getting
shitty thoughts and having
shitty dreams about
shitty stuff that is probably my own
shitty imagination. BITCH GET YOURSELF TOGETHER. Stop being so DAMN NEGATIVE ALL THE TIME. AND ALSO STOP COUNTERING YOURSELF. One day you write differing emotions are good, and today you're writing about HOW YOU WANT TO BE FUCKING HAPPY? DAMN RIGHT YOU WANT TO BE HAPPY. WHO THE FUCK WANTS TO BE NEGATIVE FUCK ALL THE TIME? Pick yourself together and realize how FUCKING LUCKY YOU ARE being able to do what you want to do with your life, having PEOPLE WHO CARE around you and BEING IN A GOOD PLACE. AND STOP reading so much DRAMA,
YOU'RE WASTING ALL THE CASH ON POPCORN.(...)Anyway.
Now, I'm going to put my composure back on, after expelling everything I needed to expell out of me. I know I cursed a lot in this post, some of you might disagree with it, some of you probably look at me like I'm some sort of
gentle creature pacing through this world on her toes but reality is, I'm like a 4''5 angsty fuck that doesn't give a shit, is always sarcastic, and sometimes does this artistic thing of hers, doesn't listen on classes because she's too busy drawing shit, fucks around and does nothing all day then probably panics when its nighttime. So, sorry for disappointing you, I'm probably not sorry if you hold me up to your unrealistic
standards listed above. I'm a human?
This rant helped me quite a bit. For the past few days, I've been tired of everything and I needed to rant to someone. I might make this Rant Saturday a thing now, perhaps I'LL BE A LITTLE MORE ACTIVE HERE I GUESS? MAYBE? Don't expect much from me tho.
Rant Saturday is where
my true self would shine, I guess.
See ya next time loves.
P.S. I ALMOST LOST THIS ENTIRE DAMN POST. YOU BITCH ARE SO CLUMSY.
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